Monday...another busy week

Supposed to be working on my either my job-work or school work right now....obviously doing neither. Can't be helped really - my stress level is thorough the roof and has been for about a week now. The end of the semester struggle is really bad this time and trying to force myself to care is tough. At least I got a decent night's sleep last night. Had Todd sleep in living room so I could go Ambien-free last night. I've found too many nights in a row of sleep meds and I, one, don't sleep as well, and, two, it affects my daytime mood too much.

Todd has his in-person interview for the Ass't Mgr job on Wed...oh please let him get this job. I can't stand being stuck in this apt night after night, while he works, for much longer. Of course, it would be helpful if Kate had a normal Grandma who was willing to help out in the evenings past 7 pm. Also helpful if Grandma was willing to watch Kate so mom could get some adult-time. My mom only thinks she should help out if it involves my job or school work. If I ask her to watch Kate on a Friday night so I can go out with the girls, that gets a "no". Since my hubby and I only get one night, Saturday, I feel guilty going out without him. The whole situation totally sucks!

Have my report for writing class - it was due yesterday..oops! I get 5 points deducted per day late...o'well. I can only do so much. My shoulder was hurting so bad by Saturday night that I was practically in tears. The thought of more computer work on Sunday was about unthinkable. Even now my shoulder is starting to flare up again and I have a whole day of work ahead of me.

On a completely different note, had two blasts from the past contact me over the last few days. It is funny how people pop back up in your life after long periods of time. I like to know that someone is still thinking about me, and in a positive way, after all these years. Makes me feel good. Lord knows, most days I don't feel appreciated in any positive way so these connections make me feel nice.

Well, I think I've gotten most thoughts out for now. Time to work...

Stuff

I have stuff, random and not so random, thoughts running through my head. I wasn't going to blog but I feel like if I don't get it out, my head might explode. As usual, the week got worse with each passing day. I start out each renewed from the weekend - nice time with Todd and Kate (usually) and no work stress. But as Monday becomes Tuesday becomes Wednesday, etc., I start to get annoyed and irrated at everything and everyone. Some weeks are better than others, of course. This was my bad week b/c it is month-end. The stress of closing out the month makes everyone a little nuts and then you throw the holiday/spring break in there too? Oh geez! Plus Michelle, my boss, had her surgery on Wednesday. Today Kate was out of school for their "spring break" day. God Damn, Good Friday...more freakin' places are closed on Easter than on Christmas. What the hell?? Todd went in a bit late today and took her out for a while, but it still badly messed up my work day. I mean, really, would you take your 3 year old to the office and expect to get any work done? Our apt is my office - I do the same work here that I did when I went to an office building everyday. It makes me nuts to have her home and me trying to work - Ugh! Definitely a downside to "work from home". I tell Todd "what would you do if I worked in an office? Why can't you take the day off to care for her?" I told him it was ok if I cut out of work early today but then, as things do, work went south around noon and never recovered. This afternoon I was tired, hot, and had to deal with a cranky preschooler while Todd went off to work.

I've been trying to stick to a schedule and do certain things on certain days - my attempt to control the chaos. Had two successful days this week - Tues and Wed. I guess I should be glad for those two days. Instead, as I tend to do, I bitch about the other 3 not so great days. My shoulder has been killing me, I swear I am constantly picking up either Kate or Todd's stuff, dishes, laundry, cat boxes, etc. etc. *AAAHHHH*

Been missing my Wii also - we got the damn thing so I could try to fit a work-out in at home. Guess what? Still don't have time to work-out even when you cut out the commute time. It is crazy. I am really trying to take things one day at a time - not plan too far ahead. Each day, I tell myself "just get through this day". Work on what needs to be done TODAY - not tomorrow, or next week, or next month. It is difficult for me to compartmentalize like that, but I am trying. I also remind myself that this semester ends in 5 weeks - I can handle 5 more weeks. I have finally started my Valuation project - I have two more Tuesdays to complete it. I figure as long as I do some work and turn in something, how bad can my grade be? I just need to graduate - I am way past caring about my grades.

Ok, need a to-do list for tomorrow so I can sleep w/out worry - think I may have overbooked myself (again) this weekend.